Peaceful.

For the first time, in a very, very long time I finally feel happy and peaceful. I feel like I have no worries. Even though we are still struggling with money, and my Nan has just been diagnosed with cancer in her spine, kidneys, and lungs. Those parts of my life I can't change, even though I desperately want too! My nan means the world to me, and it kills me knowing that she's in pain. I would do anything for anyone of my family, no matter what. 

So part of me does feel guilty for feeling happy, and peaceful. But I know it makes my nan happy seeing me happy again. I've had a rubbish few months, and had to seek help from a counsellor. I had one session, and felt like loads had lifted so I have stopped them again but have asked if I can resume if I need to in the future. It's always nice having someone that doesn't know you listen and help you properly without judging. 

I have just had a fresh new outlook on life, don't have certain people in my life that made me feel down anymore, and have renunited with old friends. Have a beautiful daughter and another beautiful child on the way. And the sun is shining. And my family are just incredible. Oh and Joe has just been promoted to Deputy Manager at the Pre-School he works at! 

Keep thinking positive thoughts!! :)